Making a wish come true

Had a lovely day, got to 8pm and had consumed 1500 cals in a healthy manner, then I went and ruined it all with a share sized pack of thai sweet chilli crisps and sweet popcorn - why why!!

I really need to get this binge eating under control, its beginning to worry me as I can’t even remember the last time I had a week where I haven’t overeaten on junk food…

Weighed myself this morning, it was 174.4 lbs, I actually put on 1.4 lbs - its so terrible I couldn’t think of anything to do but laugh. Considering my diet this week I’m not surprised I think I underestimated the calories I was eating on some days plus I’m taking Dianette which makes me randomly retain fluid as well. 

But despite the bad news this morning I’ve actually done pretty well today: Breakfast was Oaty Cereal - 200 cals, blueberries - 20 cals, lunch: muffin - 340 cals, pasta with cream cheese - 400 cals, dinner: chicken soup - 200 cals, rice - 200 cals and hot chocolate - 40 cals, banana - 70 cals total: 1470 cals.

I can’t be bothered listing down what I ate - yesterday was definitely around the 2000 calories mark or more - my worst day by far. Today was pretty bad too - but I think I’m around the 1500 mark, I just ate really badly.

Tomorrow I’m going to weigh myself, it’ll be a miracle if I lost anything with the diet I’ve had. The only thing that’s changed is that I’ve been paying attention to every single thing that has passed my lips these past few days!

So again these two days have been pretty bad, not helped by the fact I’ve been in quite a lethargic bland mood not wanting to move anywhere or do anything!

Day 4: Tbh I’m struggling to remember any of it, because it was that boring. I had a takeaway chicken wrap and chips which was around 900 cals, then I binged late in the evening on chocolate spread on toast and 3 potato waffles while watching Secret Eaters on Channel 4 ironically. In total my intake was around the 1700-1900 mark - too high for any decent weight loss.

Day 5: i.e. today again a mixed day: nutella on toast around 350 cals, 6 chocolate digestive biscuits - 500 cals, lentil sandwich - 300 calories, 2 potato waffles - 200 cals, a bit of tuna and pasta - 250 cals, handful of maltesers - 150 cals. Total intake for today is around 1750!! It was the chocolate digestive biscuits that really killed it and I didn’t even like them that much!

If I bulked up more on fruit and veges I wouldn’t get through my calories so fast I think but when you’re in a crappy mood all you want is comfort food, which if you look at my diet for the past few days is what I’ve been eating.

Oh well tomorrow is another day … unfortunately.

I ate around 800 healthy calories and then I binged on 900 calories worth of chocolate! Bad times, no idea why considering I managed to get the next 3 days off, so was in a great mood.

Anyhoo I will control this chocolate problem! Tomorrow its going to be all about gymming it! The plan for tomorrow:

Breakfast: Porridge and honey - 150 cals

Snack: Almonds - 50 cals

Lunch: Pasta with tuna salad - 300 cals

Snack: Fruit

Dinner: Small amount of w/e cooked - 4-500 cals

Snack: Yoghurt - 80 cals

It started out OK I followed my diet as I planned but after dinner everything went to hell!

I ended up eating 5 biscuits, 1 snickers and a whole bottle of Friji chocolate fudge milkshake -damn ASDA for maiking them only 50p!! A total of 1100 extra calories. I did this because this is how I relax after a day of failed pcrs in the lab - watching tv and eating junk food, I really need to find an alternative method, going to the gym just sounded so painful but I should have

BUT it could have been worse I suppose I have done much worse damage. I can and will repair this tomorrow!

Breakfast: banana, yoghurt and green tea ~ 150 cals

Snacks: Almonds

Lunch: Cream cheese sandwich, blueberries and coffee ~ 300 cals

Snacks: Fruit

Dinner: Small amount of w/e is cooked and green tea ~ 400 cals

Snacks: Hot chocolate, and almonds

Lots of water!

hello, thanks for the follow :) Your blog looks interesting and  I really hope that it all goes well for you! I read your last post, and I think a couple of things could help those sorts of situations. 1) give it to someone else. Trying to make something like this an absolute test of will power from day 1 makes life so much harder for you. I’ve found the easiest way for me to avoid junk food is to simply not have it around, otherwise I always end up eating it at some point. 2) make a different snack. Once you start thinking about eating, it’s hard to get it out of your mind, so if you make an alternative healthy snack you might feel better about it! 3) cut off a little bit of it (I dunno like 1/3 ?), eat it, and throw the rest in the bin straight away (or share it). That way you’ve had a little fix but the rest of the temptation is gone. You might not even want this advice and I’m really sorry if you didn’t, but the post resonated with me so much and it took me a long time before I could work out how to deal with similar cravings without making me feel like crap! 

I hope it all goes well for you, I have faith in you! I’m here if you ever need any support!

I have had mixed results today, I managed to stick the diet listed earlier but I found that after my last meal at dinner I had a pounding headache and felt sick so I couldn’t exercise.

I couldn’t work out what it was, but I counted that I had consumed around 530 calories! Which is nothing and after a couple glasses of water, sweet yellow rice and tea and biscuits my headache had gone but I added at least 400 calories to what I consumed today.

Basically I underestimated the calories I would consume today by a lot! And ended up making them up with unhealthy foods like biscuits and sugary rice. Its after 9pm now though so no more food for me, I might have a cup of warm milk before I sleep.

Lesson Learned Today: Work out the calorie count of your planned meals as well! I was aiming for 1200-1400 lol I think I only managed around 900 cals.

Meal plan for tomorrow:

Breakfast: Greek yoghurt, banana and a teensy bit of honey ~ 150 cals and green tea

Snack: Almonds ~ 40 cals

Lunch: Tuna mayo salad either in a sandwich or with pasta either way ~ 300 cals

Snack: Fruit ~ 50 cals

Dinner: Small amount of w/e is cooked at home ~ 400 cals

Dessert: Small scoop of vanilla ice cream ~ 100 cals

I’m sure I’ll snack on something extra along the way, plus those cappuccino sachets I like to drink when I’m in labs have like 70 cals in them so there shouldn’t be a worry about under eating tomorrow!